My state of fandom? Complicated at best.
Like so many others here, I first came to know of GB through POTO. I actually saw 300 first, and thought it was an awesome movie, but I really didn't recognize the amazing man Gerry is at that time. I actually came across some clips of POTO on youtube, when I was searching for Hugh Jackman. (You can't blame a girl for 2 obsessions, can you?) When I saw that GB was singing in Phantom, I was like WHAT???? The guy that says "This is SPARTA" and kicks major booty is singing opera? This was interesting. I really didn't become obsessed though until a week after my initial discovery.
My husband was out of town for work, and I was on my own for the week. The day before he came home. I was in a car accident. I wasn't hurt, but it was still pretty scary. I didn't know if my car would run, if I could get it fixed, or even how I was going to get to work or if I would lose my job because I didn't have transportation anymore. All of these thoughts were crashing down on me and I didn't know where to turn. Then I remembered my find on you tube. I spent that whole night watching everything I could with GB in it, including most of POTO. Watching those clips helped me to stop crying and focus on something else for a while. He helped me get through that first night, and many nights after that.
I still turn to GB and this forum whenever I am having a tough time, which is pretty often lately (stupid economy). It's not like I ever even want to meet him, I just love to read about his views on life and listen to his voice; he's not bad on the eyes either. Sometimes a stranger can touch you in ways no one else can; and for me, GB helps me to forget about the bad things going on in my life right now, even if it's just for a few minutes. That and I do have some weird thing for movie stars who sing and dance: Gerry, Hugh Jackman, Ewan MacGregor, Gene Kelly (he's the one that started this obsession). And if I ever did meet Gerry, I would like to tell him thank you. Thank you for being the actor and man that you are; you've made your fans smile over and over and over again, and we can never repay you for that.