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Swansong's Dream Part One:

Dear friends,

As I look back on the last few days, and on my experiences in Vegas at the GB Fan Convention, I am physically, emotionally and spiritually overwhelmed. From the moment I learned that through the generosity and kindness of my fairy godmother, I would be going to the Ball... I had a deep sense that this trip would be meaningful for me.

How was I to know that the events, friendships and unexpected joys of this trip, would so profoundly impact my life?

As I recount my experiences for you; my friends and sister fans (and PALS), I want you to know that I do this for one reason only. Not to bring notice to myself, but to let you all know how proud I am to be part of the GB fan community, and to be a fan of a truly extraordinarily, ordinary man.

I tell this story not to brag, for I myself have read other fan encounters with a tinge of jealousy, wishing that I would one day have the opportunity to meet Gerard Butler, while believing it would NEVER happen to me. So much was I convinced, that I would never meet him.... I actually wrote my own "pretend fan encounter" which you can read here > http://www.gerardbutlergals.com/forums/ind...c=5009&st=0

I will post my *real* fan encounter story in segments, as there is simply so much to say.

Many of you know my son Nathan's story, and if you do not, you may read about it in the GB.net and GB.GALS prayer forums. Many of you also know that I have been writing my own version of Phantom for over a year now, and that my book in progress was inspired by Gerry's hauntingly beautiful portrayal of a Phantom, who went straight into my heart. I have been posting my book, Chanson, de L'ange chapter by chapter in both the GB.net Fanfiction Forum, and on GALS. The writing of this book was birthed from a passion that I thought had died in me... as a result of Nathan's long illness, and it has provided an outlet for my expression as an artist, as well as my own means of acknowledging Gerard Butler, and thanking him for all he has come to mean to me.

When I heard about the talent competition that would be held at the Vegas fan convention, I had intended to perform a song from ALW's POTO... but one day while I was searching on-line for a decent accompaniment track and not finding one, the lyrics and melody to an orginal song based on my book Chanson de L'ange simply came to me. I have been a song writer since I was 13 years old, but have not written a single song for over 3 years, let alone sung in my classical voice, so I was surprised when the song became an aria, to be sung in my upper "classical" range, which has not been used for over 27 years.

I shared the song with my son, who quickly recorded me singing it acapella, and I asked him if he could compose an instrumental accompaniment for me to sing with, so I could perform the aria at the competition. At that time, Nathan was still quite ill, but he agreed, and we soon began work on the piece. Once I realized how working on music again was affecting him in such a positive way, and that it might help to boost his morale, the idea came to me for him compose a soundtrack for my book, as if it were a film.... again he agreed.

As the weeks went by and Vegas approached, I decided that we should create a CD for Gerry, containing the aria and as many tracks as we could complete before Vegas. We were able to record 6 complete tracks, and a special gift CD was created for Gerry, which was delivered to him by Tonya, along with many other offerings from his fans who had submitted special gifts. Although I was very proud of this CD.... I wondered if Gerry would really ever hear it, but at the same time, I was thrilled that Nathan was composing again, and that made the whole thing worth while.

Now let me jump ahead to friday at the convention: I had been feeling a bit "off" all day, and by mid morning I realized that I was getting sick. (I won't go into all the details of this now, but will fill in more later) By the time I needed to get ready for the evening's festivities, I was feeling very ill, feverish, nauseous, chills and just plain yucky. But I decided that nothing would prevent me from performing that night... I was not about to miss the opportunity to share both my love and respect for Gerry, as well as my son's music. So I dressed up in my evening gown and made my way shakily through the smoke filled casino to the Ballroom.

When my name was called to sing, I could feel my legs shaking so badly from weakness, I was afraid I might fall on my face, but looking out to all the loving and encouraging ladies gave me courage, and as Gerry's personal videographer was positioned right in front of me with his camera.... I sang my song to the best of my abilty, dedicating the aria to both Gerry and to my son Nathan.

You can hear the song by watching the music video here:

Or on my son's MySpace music player here: (Scroll down to Chanson de L'ange)

http://www.myspace.com/bonnieanneampnathanallen

Enjoy!

to be continued..... here:Part 2

Swan

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Swan,

It was a beautiful and moving performance. I feel tremendously lucky to have been there to hear it. I am very happy you won the award and met Gerry. It was wonderful to have met you! And I hope you feel much better very soon.

Hugs,

Carrie

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I was sorry to hear you were ill, but you sang with such passion in your voice, Swannie!

I know some of the ladies were mad at me, because when you were finished singing they wanted pics of you.. I was so consumed with emotion, I jumped out of my chair and ran to hug you.

I coudn't stop crying.

The song, the music, the lyrics..your voice - it was haunting.

Beautiful.

You are such a kind person.

A very beautiful woman, inside and out!

:hugs:

Bethy

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Bonnie Anne,

I'm so glad you are feeling well enough to start telling us your story. As I have said before, there was not a dry eye in the room, you could have heard a pin drop when you finished singing your beautiful aria. I get goosebumps just thinking about it. Just a hunch, you know about my hunches, but I think Gerry was just as moved when he heard the recording and saw your performance which Jeremy videotaped for him. Let me hear how you are feeling.

Love you,

Libby

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:yippee: ok, this was me the night I read about your AWARD! :claphands:

.....and from my heart do I rejoice in the beauty of the story Bonnie! :inlove:

......It is like the whole fairytale .....a dream is a wish your heart makes..............

.I look forward to the rest, and thankyou for allowing us to share in these stories!

ps.. I hope you are better...................:D

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Dear Swan,

Your dream came true!

You met Gerry and in such a wonderful loving way, too!

Surrounded by friends and FANmily!

Congratulations! On you award! :clap:

I hope we get to see a video of your performance.

Take your time Swan and post a little bit at a time.

I hope you are feeling better very soon!

Love,

Suzanne

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Bonnie,

Thank you for sharing your gifts with all of us. It was very beautiful. I really and truly enjoyed the talents shared by everyone. I'm so glad that you were able to have that special time with Gerry.

~alice

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Dear Swan,

I'm sooo happy for you. Meeting Gerry must have been truly magical.

And congtatulations on your award.

You looked simply amazing..........your hair, the gown...just beautiful.

It is so nice to read your story...and I look forward to reading more. I hope that will continue to feel better with each day.

Love,

Marianne

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Dear Swan,

It was great meeting you in Vegas (I am the newly converted fan). I am soooooo glad you were well enough to sing because it brought tears to my eyes. I especially liked the life size trophy you received the next evening :heat: . I hope you get better soon. Your family is in my prayers.

Nina

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Swan, I've said it before and I'll say it again... I think you're amazing. You're voice is awesome, and I was blown away when you said you hadn't used your "upper classical range" in over 27 years...wow... I know you and Nathan put a lot of work into this, and I'm so glad you got to meet Gerry, especially since you pushed through and performed despite being extremely ill. Once again, I hope you get better soon, and I hope to talk to you later in chat.
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Dearest Swan, it moves me so much to know what you were enduring while you sang your beautiful aria! Believe me, if you hadn't said anything no one would have noticed! You sang so beautifully that you touched everyone there. Your son's music was magic! It was almost spiritual! I think everyone there rejoiced with you in your minutes with Gerry. You deserved that special time with him! I am sure Gerry will love your gift to him. How could he not?

I was so glad to have been able to finally meet you and hug you too. I pray you are feeling much better.

Much love and hugs...Robyne

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Dear friends,

Thank you for your kind words and support. Please forgive me if I am unable to reply to PMs. I am just trying to catch up on all the news and will answer PMs when I can.

Love,

Swan

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I wasn't there, I don't know Swan but she looked lovely and I've just listened to her sing.

Swan, your voice, the music, it's simply beautiful; moving and inspirational. Thank you for sharing this with us. Rest well and heal from your illness. Please post when you've recovered.

Take care,

Elle

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I'm a newbie and I just wanted to say you sounded great. I'm a singer myself, and you inspired me to keep up with the singing. I'm glad you got to meet Gerry in Vegas. Do take care of yourself and get better! I would love to hear more about your story and more of your voice!

--Lady Trueword

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Swan,

There are just no words to really express how I feel after listening to your recording, so I guess the best way is simply saying how beautiful your voice and this song is. Please, please tell your son that his music was simply inspiring. (Tears are still running down my face as I write this!).

Hugs

Sancre

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Swan...it was so lovely meeting you at the Convention! Your story about Nathan and your song were incredibly beautiful. It was hard to keep from crying during your performance. You must continue with your story so that all can share your joy! Your costume and your hair were just stunning! I'm sooo happy that Gerrry was there to give you your award! Isn't he marvelous and those eyses and strong arms just pull you in! Congratulations, sweetie!

Jodi (BlackOperaMask)

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Dear Swan,

I have just listened to your song - and also me I'm without words to descripe how I feel listening - it's amazing, touching and verry beautiful!!!! As is your Phantom-Story. A story which hooked me - i couldn't stop reading when I've started it!

You deserved this special Moment with Gerry and i'm happy for you!! Only hope you feel better soon.#

All the best

gusti

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Oh, Bonnie Anne!

I was so happy for you! Not only is your voice beautiful, but your talent to write the aria's lyrics and your performance are amazing.

There was hardly a dry eye in the room.

I am praying that you will be feeling better very soon.

Eagerly awaiting more of your posts!

Hugs,

Barb

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Oh Swansong.

I cannot find words to respond to your beauty.

You and your son's music are gifts to all of us.

Gerry must have been nearly brought to his knees when he heard your voice and creation.

I certainly have been tonight.

Can any group of people, gathered in one place, be as talented, and loving?

I doubt it.

Thank you for letting us all be a part of Saturday's wonder, of which you were a big part.

I look forward to one day meeting you. :rose:

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Oh Swan, I just listened to your aria. Your voice is truly a gift from God. No wonder you won. Nathan's music is

also beautiful. I'm so glad you got your Gerry moment. :yippee:

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Dear Swan,

Having enjoyed your novel "Chanson de l'Ange" bit by bit as it came out on GB.net, I'm amazed to hear this wonderful song on GALS. It is a true gem. You have a great voice and I can believe the thrill of singing this before the man himself must have been overwhelming. You're a true artist. Thank you for sharing!

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One of MY dreams came true in seeing you meet Gerry, Swan. Your music and voice stirred me so deeply, I had tears flowing down my face and I was wiping them off my chin as you performed. You always believed that meeting Gerry would NEVER happen for you and for me to be just a few feet away to witness you face to face with him was priceless. I look forward to the rest of your story and do hope that you are feeling better.

(on a lighter note - when I awoke with a fever this morning my roomie Pam said "I hope you don't have the same thing Swans has" to which I responded "bird flu?") ::D: :confused:

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My dearest Swan....

My heart is just full to *overflowing* as I am reading what you have shared and feeling so thrilled for you and so concerned about you.....and I am hoping to read *the rest of the story* just as soon as you are up to it.

I am so sorry that you are battling illness....I cannot think of anyone who deserves that less than *you* do....and I will be continually praying for your healing , sweet comfort and *blessed peace* to fulfill your every need as you rest and recover~~

I am especially sorry that you are dealing with so much during this time when I soooooo wish you could be just abundantly filled with the **joy** of your *dream come true*!!! most especially in light of the wonderful *gift* which you gave to Gerry, to all your friends who love you so much and to the whole world through the beautiful gift of your heart through *song* ~~~~Brava, Brava my sweet sister.....

You have so often been the source of the most amazing inspiration to me and have given me such encouragement and such compassion and *love* during a time when I was suffering so much.....and it is particularly poignant when I consider the fact that you were comforting me while enduring such pain in your own life and in the life of your precious son Nathan.

I know he is so proud of you, my dear....just as Gerry undoubtedly is ....as well as feeling blessed to share this life journey with you....and I know that I consider it an honor and a treasure in my life to know someone who completely personifies the meaning of *unconditional love*.

Take extra special tender loving care of *you* and please *know* that you are someone who shares and teaches so much to others about what it means to never, ever give up and to chase your dreams, no matter what. You give such a gift to all who are blessed to know you....

through simply being who you are and sharing that with all of us....

I wish you your every hearts desire and *dreams come true*~~~ ever after~~

With much love always

xoxoxoCheri

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Wow Cheri,

Your words take my breath away (that's been happening a lot lately!)

Thank you so much for taking the time to stop in here, and for speaking such life into me. As you have drawn inspiration from me... I have often drawn it from you. Thank you for being such a support and friend to so many!

Swan

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